But, we will continue to call her as "Bai" regardless ...

Bai & Me(1 yr old)

18 April 2012 at 5:40am, I lost my beloved grandmother. She passed away peacefully at the age of 68 years old. I fought with her on the day before her departure. I love her dearly. I remembered the laughter and the jokes we shared throughout our life. Even at the age of 68, she was strong and able to endure great pain.

Yesterday was a tough day for me, as I paid my last respects to someone that has been the inspiration in my life.Throughout the last few days, I kept thinking about all of the different moments I had with her. And every time I would shed tears, her face with the conviction that she had would come back to me as if she was here watching me.She would always be remembered with the likes of Indira and Rajiv Gandhi , for the ferociously proud nature that she had and the natural leader that she was.

 I miss the way she would laugh at me and the innocence look she had on her face. ...
 The love of a grandma is unique. God must have given grandmothers to us to liven up our lives, to make our lives more complete, to make us well rounded and better human beings. I forget sometimes, but I try to remember all that she taught me. I would always miss her. With her passing, I embrace her walker that she used for support during the last few years and photoframe of Goddess Lakshmi for she did the pooja every diwali, with tears in my eyes!!

Bai , thanks for taking care of me and bringing me up almost like my mother.
Thanks for that wallet that you gave me when I was just starting out on my first job ..
I remembered.
She was like a mother to me who took me under her wing... throughout my life ..


Love you Bai  - You truly were a special, special woman!

The Last Journey

You may have passed on, but your memories would always live on within me.!!

... Hawaon Mein Beh Rahi Hai Zindagi ...

I was driving office today in the bright daylight, speeding down the highway...

I Smiled. :) I haven't stopped thinking about it since I learnt what I'm about to tell you.

My family and I realise that my grandmother's health- My Grandmother [who raised me during my childhood]  is deteriorating and that her sanity has become increasingly worse. She has begun to invent things and even accusing us of lying to her when we tell her that this is not the case.
She is not able to accept that she needs to be admitted to hospital.

Thinking of her situation now, I have learnt to accept the bad with the good.
You do not know what your life will bring tomorrow, so enjoy all that you've been given today.
I've not had the best time of my life!
But,One thing that I have surely done is to never miss a chance to tell my people that I love them.
It is very important for us to put into practice this thing.
They can be taken from you in a blink of an eye.Don't put off until tomorrow what you do today. Don't wait.
Life might not always be easy; troubles will always come our way. I often wish that I could go back and live my life over. I wonder if I make the same mistakes, now that I’ve learned things the hard way. It seems the older that we get the wiser that we become. It doesn't matter how old you are, there's always something new to learn every day.
So all my dear friends, pick up the phone today and call them, just to say, "I love you."
Hope for the Best. Expect the worst. Life is a play. We're unrehearsed.

and

So sorry guys that I've not been on for the last one month - things for me have been really hectic and something had to give  ::) so time spent on here had to take a back seat I'm afraid!

I will try to be here now :)

and

 Most Importantly .. the only reason why i am here today ..
do pray that she will both recover and be improved in health. She has suffered poor health for a year now.
I am not very good with prayers so I dare not rely on my own alone.
Please GOD, please help my grandmother get better. Please help her if it is Your will. :)

Cheers Blogspot~

Lost Faith, Broken Promises..... continued

I Miss my Old Home .. X Home :)

Hey people .. dear people .. dearest blogdosts .. I am back to my favourite Page .. This time with a different plan though :)
The Hits of Kishore Kumar - Instrumental is the ongoing playlist right now setting the perfect stage for me to share the feelings most close to my heart..
But before that, this time around I have my first GUEST BLOGGER writing exclusively for the very first time just for ME..
It could have been none other than my favourite follower ..my favourite critic .. my Best friend .. my dearest girl .. Khushi !!!!!
I always say to her - Jiska naam khushi ho.. use bhala koi gham kaise ho sakta hai...One who's name in itself means Happiness how can such a person ever be unhappy...

This rightly defines the overall personality of this person who has been in my Life for more than 5 years now..
She's one of those few persons who has seen all of me.
She's saw me crazy.. saw me cry .. saw me dream .. saw me frustrate .. saw me break down ..saw me rise up.. saw me celebrate..
Infact she can comfortably predict me in all my actions.I find her very close to myself and the best thing in her is she understands me exceptionally well. She does not expect me to be good to her all the times and has great generosity to forgive me for the worst of blunders.
We do not have many interests in common but still we have a real great time together.
I can go on n on n on about her but the reality remains that it's a emotion that no word can sufficiently convey..

so over to her now.. she had promised me to bring out the female's perspective of Lost Faith, Broken Promises~
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Hi there from Khusi.. yes it's me :)....and a special hi to ladies out there, coz unlike my comment on the post 'Lost faith, broken promises'  am only gonna talk for girls today... as this space was meant for that, complete justice to the space alotted to me:)

Now, men, before you freak out, this article isn't about "what you think women want" but more rather what women actually want.

To start let me give you the wrong answers that most of the men always give...
Good sense of humor, bank balance,status, a big car, good looks, tall dark and handsome or super model, kindness, hotness, great hair, romance, intelligent, loves Kids, eye color, etc etc...  There is no question that having all these is an asset.

Anyone who tells you otherwise is a liar. But, these would only serve as an added bonus....they may not really be wht we want..

So here goes the list what women actually want....

(In no particular order)

->Should be Honest : This is high up on the list and is a must for survival of any relationship. A woman does not wan to be treated badly or lied to. If a woman asks you a question, she expects u to b true(and this is not an unreasonable request.
Men do not like to be lied to or treated badly either)

->Should be Faithful: This shouldn’t even have to be said here, but so many men think they can get away with being unfaithful and it won't affect them.  You will never be respected once you’ve been unfaithful and there is absolutely no excuse for it.
And "that's why that's why Kolaveri kolaveri Di" :D

->Should make her feel special: By that i don't mean start writing love sonnets or put her on pedestal. It's just that she wants to feel chosen by u, like there was something special about her that made you want to be with her. How hard is that?

This will score you big points :D

->Should pay attention(Lend them ears):   A woman will want to tell every little nuance of a story, where you might think, "OK, what's the point?" The point here is women need to VENT. Women want men to listen to them and, Listening requires actively paying attention - shutting off the chatter mind.

->Should be generous and kind enough: This seems like a no-brainer,  be generous. Small gifts, especially gifts that show you were listening when she mentioned her favorite candy bar will score you more points:D

->Should be Romantic not a 'Rich' : A simple recipe to win a woman's heart is to give her loads of love and keep up the romance. It's not always the case that a girl chases a guy for materialistic reasons, rather women seek romantic mates.

->Should be ready for Commitment : An absolute must for any long term relationship.  If you are not committed then there will always be that little doubt in the back of her mind asking if you are really serious about the relationship.

->Should respect her : There’s no question of this, if you disrespect her you may as well throw the relationship out of the window right now.

->Should be compatible:  This is the most important of all. You may be a great guy, but at times both of you may just be way too incompatible for each other. She may like you, but she may not be willing to date you for her own reasons of compatibility.

You see, it’s not the grand gestures that most women want. It’s the little things that tell her that she has chosen a great guy. It’s all about putting in a little extra effort. This is not rocket science. It is just common sense:)

Women want you to be a man for them – that is what they fall in love with :)

Now, does that means if you have all these qualities, then you are a perfect guy for any1?? not really....apart from this list every1 will have MY LIST as well... I have it too....and my list is even bigger....

Here's My list of 'THE IDEAL MAN'...Qualities that i look forward to in my 'Prince Charming'

I am not a Day dreamer, nor am i career oriented, i would not mind my 'would be' dictating my life either. But I'm very finicky when it comes to choosing my Mr.Perfect....

He should have loads of patience and be able to deal with me( to deal with me he got to have loads of patience)
Should remember things that are special to both of us like birthdays, anniversaries, first date, special holidays and so on.... (this is a must or else I'll end up killing him ...)
Should dare not treat me as a decorative frill, something which you can put aside whenever you have something important to do.
Should be attuned to my feelings, meaning, he should know how to handle my emotions-upset and excitement etc....
Should have a clean shave or at least rough shave(goatees or french beard are acceptable... but a strict NO-NO to moustache)
Should be a non-smoker, non-drug user and a teetotaler...
Should have a lovely family, a family like suhana's sasural from 'sasural genda phul'(my dream sasural hehe)...and this 1 is high up on my list:)..I would cheerfully settle with a not so rich but a happy and loving family. I would love to have all possible relations in my life as an "in-Law"....be it Jait, devar, nanad, bahu...every single possible relation.. the bigger the family...the happier me:)( with all ifs and buts)...And if i get such a family i would not mind giving away my job, doing all the cleanin, doin the kitchen(which i knw no1 would want me to do hehe)....
And most of all.. he should be sane, after all we can’t both be Nutty! hehe :D

I know the list is too long but I have loads of patience to wait for the right person:) ....till then i will happily live
single:)

Thanks a lot Khushi for this wonderful writeup. More thanks for taking out the time to do it as i know you keep very busy.
Ofcourse i would definitely mention to my readers that I do not match up to many of the qualities(leaving out the last one) that you have mentioned in your MY LIST.
I adore you very much and would never hurt you even if it would mean hurting others.
All i can say to you is I enjoy and treasure your presence in my life as much as i do for my sister.
You are really really special. Friends Forever...

P.S: This Morning I fooled her (once again) saying that I have adopted the KAANCHA look of Agnipath and she happily believed me given the fact that she has seen that level of craziness in me...